Monday, May 05, 2008

It's a choice. I gladly choose it :)

It has been a really tiring week for me. Having to handle school work, push cart, recruitment and many dance trainings (for GDOP and Celebration Dinner). Haven't been sleeping well most of the time as I'll wake up sneezing in the middle of the night which I totally have no idea why. This really made me kinda restless the next day.
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However am still thankful that He sustained me through the week. Thankful for this important reminder by Irene: When we work, we work. When we pray, God works. How true. Am just thankful to the Lord for giving me strength to press on. I'm reminded to be prayerful at all times, leaning on His strength and not mine (I have no more strength left!)
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I was praying to God before worship started today asking if He could encourage my heart :) God really never fails to satisfy my heart desire. He did! He encouraged me through the worship leader with this beautiful Psalm:
I lift my eyes to the hills -
Where does my help comes from?
My help comes from the Lord,
the maker of heaven and earth.
(Part of the Psalm, vs 1-2)
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Amen. How comforting is that. I don't know if you will understand but it really brought comfort and joy to my heart instantly. Thank you God! :D
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Over the weekend, the Lord has taught me a precious lesson too. (It seems like God always teaches me valuable lessons over the weekends! If you've noticed!) He taught me something about Love. Loving my family, the dearest people to my heart.

I'm reminded that Love is a choice.
It's when it's no longer self centred but other-person centred.
It's when it's inconvenient, yet you'll choose to do it for the person.
It's when you're really tired, yet you'll choose to do it, just for the person.
(Well of course, like Sherol sis has been telling me, Love comes with wisdom too!)

I really thank God that I am able to care for my brother-in-law through a simple gesture today. It actually brought much joy to me the whole of today! :)

God also gave me another opportunity to learn to love my Mum. My aunt's mother-in-law passed away and Mum has to be there at the wake. However, I do know that she doesn't like to attend family functions so I just told her, "Mum, I'll go with you." I'm actually glad I told her that because I could see that she feels better, even when she has to attend the wake. This is quite challenging actually as I have school tmr from 11am-6pm (+ other commitments to fulfil). I do have my struggles after making this decision but dear God, I gladly choose it :)

Ask of You to put Joy in my heart even as I continue to learn to love others.

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